hold me back
I don’t like riding ferries or being on anything high without being completely enclosed because I always feel compelled to just lean forward and let my body go.
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anything really threatening… I almost do it, and then I don’t and have to sit there and think about what would happen and especially if I died… What would the people around me do…
Oh my god it’s great to know there’s more freaks like me. All the below about alarms and ledges applies but my most frequent “compulsion” is when I’m standing on the platform at the trainstation and the train is about to pull in. I have to brace myself and summon all the will power I can not to jump. The other one is when I’m driving over a bridge and I keep thinking about veering into the crash barrier. It also happens when I’m talking to people I don’t know very well, my mind wonders and I think about what would happen if I were to lick their face for example. Could it be some sort of Tourette’s thing? When I was a kid I did follow through on a compulsion to bite drinking glasses and nothing happenend, I didn’t cut my lip or anything. I had to stop when I realised that it wasn’t socially advantagous to bite glasses but the compulsive feelings remain.
OMG that is SO me, i cant help it, i remember i was at the grandcanyon once and i reeeeeeally wanted to just jump and roll all the way down, i kept on imagining it. And i feel the same with meg, i CANNOT stand near anything thats telling me not to touch or pull or enter. I always thought it was just me though…
I have the same thing as red. Cliffs are tempting, too.
I can’t say i feel tempted to jump whilst standing near a ledge.. but I do have a irrational fear that i may be pushed. … well, maybe thats not irrational
i feel the same. i also hate standing near the edge of a rooftop because i feel tempted to jump. haha
yes yes yeees. me too. I am the same about fire alarms. I hate being near one cause I am so afraid I am just going to reach out and PULL IT without thinking. very weird.
EXACTLY HOW I FEEL!!!!
Wow I feel exactly the same way! Me and my sis have always had in this in common and we’ve always thought it was kinda strange…I guess not.
More generally, I sometimes obsess about situations where a simple action would have huge consequences; jumping off a ledge could be a small jump which under most circumstances would be completely safe. The same goes for the fire alarm (a simple pull of a switch would ruin the day for a whole bunch of people, not least of whom yourself), jumping in front of an oncoming subway, or causing a collision while driving a car.
I have no desire to do any of those things, but I can become fixated on the fact that it’s within my power.
Same! I’m terrified that I’ll lose mental control for a second and jump! especially on bridges, cliffs, etc. I’m in no way suicidal or anything, just afraid that my curiosity will get the better of me.
thats a very common existential phenomenom
i sometimes just want to jump to see what it feels like. i think i might one day……..