i’m putting on a show.
I always act as if I’m being watched, even when I know I’m not or no one is around. I pretend it’s a comedy and I purposefully trip over stuff and say things I know I shouldn’t. But it usually doesn’t matter, because no one is around
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i do that ALL THE TIME!! glad to know i’m not the only one.
Hhahahaha!! I can totally relate. I grew up my whole life thinking I was in a narrative autobiography and whenever it rained, it meant a new chapter had begun…
yes i often do this too.
I feel like there is someone inside of me watching what i am doing and can hear and see everything I do. That person changes by who I have a crush on. and whenever I start to feel no one is watching me I cant cope. Even now writing this I want someone to be watching me
Oh my God I do that too!
I feel as if family or friends are watching me, and I try to behave as good as I can.
Wow. This is exactly what I’ve done too almost my whole life.
I think it started when I saw a quote my 5th grade teacher had up.
It said ‘Being good is doing the right thing, even when no one’s looking.’
And so then forth, I would always act as I felt was ‘being good.’
And ya, later it changed into feeling that the person I had a crush on was watching me, and I should act how they would want me to.
the truman show totally made me feel like i was always being watched. they always watch you in the mirror, so i’d mess with them and make crazy faces
Same with me, I can usually catch myself explaining things when no ones in the room.
I do that too, and when I did a personality test the result showed being “HISTRIONIC” as its personality disorder.WHen I googled the meaning of it I was shocked to find it true to my behaviors.
I’ve done that since I was a small child. When carrying the laundry to my parents room down the long hallway….I’d look up as if people were there and say…”No thanks! I got it!”
Lived (and still do) every day like I’m being filmed….
i do that to!
i feel like my life’s a television show like the truman show XD
Heh, ever since 6th grade when my math teacher summarized The Truman Show for me I have felt the same way. I always have to look around and check to see there are no cameras. I do it in school as well.
I felt that way for 10 years and it started when I moved across the country and into a bigger house. Now I must have someone “watching” me or I just feel like there’s no point to some things. I explain things too and not just once because there might be new people “watching”. It’s a natural thing for me now.
People actually get committed because of this “Truman Show”-disorder. There are thousands of cases with this disorder. Registered that is. Can you imagine the amount of people that have this disorder and haven’t been diagnosed for it or say anything about it? If you think everyone else is an actor or actually doesn’t exist, you have a disorder and are kind of a douche cause it is the height of narcissism. Now hold on, I gotta adjust the cams here. Could you wear the blue thing next time by the way? Looks better on you than that thing you got on now. You know who you are!
You guys are lucky. You don’t make sound effects. I’m so used to it that I didn’t think of it as neurotic. But whenever I jump, there must be a woosh or a grunt or something. Opening the microwave? Verbal sound effects for that, too. Not everything needs an effect, but enough things do. I also have a bit of the “Put on a show” thing, too, but mostly when other people are around. The sounds are the only part that can survive in solitude.
haha, i do this sometimes, then i realize and feel like a dick and stop lol.
When I’m singing in the car or talking to myself I make SURE to say “I know you’re recording me, and that’s why I’m acting/talking/singing like this…” because I’m covered either way. If I am being recorded (because of COURSE i’m being recorded) they know it was all for show. And if I’m not, well, I’m the only one that heard.
I believe I’m always being watch. So I always try to be at my best behavior
haha im so happy im not the only one who does this! Ever since i saw the truman show when i was a kid ive been feeling like someones watching me and sometimes i explain what im doing or act really silly even though im by myself
I do that too. I explain things to myself and stuff, and if I’m getting in my car at night and I forgot to lock it, I’ll talk to anyone who might be hiding in there and tell them to get out. =D
No, I’m not too neurotic. O_o
I have long since decided thatout of all the movies I have ever seen the Truman Movie is the one I wish I could unsee. more then any other movie it has affected my daily life. I’ve mostly gotten over it, but it sure made middle school suck. I also perform in a comedy show, I like to blame that on the truman show even though I’ve mostly stopped believing that people would film me. I mean, the ratings of that show would suck.
I also ham up looking lost and frighten if I’m someplace new even if I’m alone, just so if someone comes to yell at me they’ll feel bad. They’d be yelling at me to get out because I’m not allowed.
I think I watch too many documentaries and reality stuff because I always act like I’m being filmed and sometimes I sit in my room talking to the mirror as if I’m doing some kind of video diary. Sometimes I’ll just be talking about my day or why I’m upset but other times I’ll pretend I’m in some tragic situation like I’m a teen mum who is trying to cope alone and I’ll say stuff like “It’s hard but I have to keep going for the sake of my child…”
Also, when I’m upset and crying on my own in my room I do things that no one really actually does in real life but people on tv do all the time like slide my back down the wall and put my head in my hands then look up all tragically and whisper “please, someone help me” despite the fact I’m crying about something totally trivial and pointless.
I only do it when I’m alone, or with close family/friends… if I’m around others, I “forget” about it.
I totally feel like there are always hidden cameras in my own home. Where ever I go I feel like everyone is staring so I have to act how I want to be seen as. I keep thinking my boyfriends dad works for the CIA and is always watching us. Maybe it’s because I know god is watching me. Or somebody else. Creepy.
OMG! i do this ALL the time. In my head I’m explaining what I’m doing or telling a story related to what I’m doing to usually someone I want impress in my head. And If I don’t get the story right or give instructions correctly I have to tell it again using better words or clarifying what I just said.
Also, sometimes, if I’m alone and I make a small mistake, like misplace or use the wrong object, I’ll feel like someone is watching and critizing me and then I’ll feel bad about it. That part sucks.
I do that too! I even go as far as pretending a me from the past is watching who I am today.
It started for me when I saw The Truman Show, and I can’t help but wonder if something like that actually exists. So just in case I’m the star of a modern day Truman Show, I always try to put on a good show!
I’m not surprised. I frequently do this also. But for some reason, I sort of assumed everyone did.
I so do this, I try to do stuff that I think would make a good scene even if it means sitting in the rain
i do this a hell of a lot. when i have a cigarette, i imagine im a rockstar and someone is filming me. i often imagine i am in a film and walk around acting to myself
Karim? The poncho? When should I wear the black dress?
When the Truman Show came out, I felt like it validated my neurosis. I said “see! it could be true!” I cover myself while I get changed and keep a towel wrapped around me until I’m in the shower, then put it around me before I get out. Any intimate moments I have have to be under a comforter. A sheet is too thin and I’m afraid people will see. No matter how hot it gets! I’ve had this almost all my life!
Oh thank God!! I’m not the only one!!!
I tend to pause my “show” and say “I know your there” and then just continue…
I do this too! I even sometimes go as far as to imagine it as a movie where theres music playing in the background and then i have dreams where i’m a watching myself in a sort of movie just doing regular things.
Haha!!! I ALWAYS do that!!! Thank you! Now I know I’m not the only one!!
Lollllllllllllll!
I always behave as though there are cameras hidden everywhere in my apartment. While it doesn’t stop me from dancing or singing to my favourite music, it does make me very aware of my “production value.”
After reading a news account of a landlord who put cameras in all the bedrooms and bathrooms of his rental units, I find myself looking for a red light, like the LED “on” light on a camera, whenever I use a public bathroom, or at a friends house. I look in the vents above me, in the tp dispenser, etc.
Like many people have mentioned I always narrate my movements as if I have to explain to people why I have done particular stuff! The person ‘watching’ is usually a person I have a crush on!
Yeah me too! I wonder when Im reading or looking in the mirror “what would my boyfriend think if he saw me as i see myself right now?” it freaks me out sometimes.
i talk alone as someone is around since i remember myself!it’s very helpfull and i dont have any broblem to admit it to my friends anymore.and some of them are also members of this club.
Me too!! When I look in the mirror…i pretend it’s actually a camera shot..a scene from a movie….i’ll say some cheesy dialogue to the mirror…sometimes act it out…sometimes do a crying scene to make sure my crying looks “move appropriate”…..this happens almost everyday….sometimes i “talk to the guy” (no one’s there) like it’s a scene from “A Walk to Remember”….
I do this all the time….since I was a little girl!! hahahahaha
i also sit in front of the mirror and act like i’m an actress that just won a big “best actress award”..and mtv or some huge channel is interviewing me and asking about how i came about being as successful as i am…then i talk about my “hardships as a child…pushing thru and deciding to work hard…blah blah…”…….i say all that..wasting 3 hours of time that i could have actually been working hard at something else…
i always hear my friends talking about me in my head, its like everyone can see what im doing all the time and everyone comments about it in my head, but its only people i know. i am humiliated constantly. I think everyone knows everything i do, so i talk about it like they do. i constantly think lights going off around me has some sort or symbolism to my life and that i believe that movies, “printed material”, song lyrics, or my horoscope are always directly about me, or reference me in some way. what is my deal?
paranoid??? you know this isn’t true, right? if not you should get some counseling or you’ll have such a sad life.
i totally do that, i’ll dance around or be charming as if someone is watching when i’m alone, as if i’m impressing someone but they don’t know i’m trying they just think thats the way i act…. its strange
Whenever I tell people that i do this.. I always get made fun of. I’m glad to see that I’m not alone! When I was younger I always pretended that I was famous or that I was in an interview or a documentary lol. In public I’ll talk to myself or “put on a show” with the usual things that I do. It sounds crazy but I promise it’s not ..
this is probably the reason why I am an Actor now lol
Wow, that saves me a lot of questions about myself. I thought I was the only one!
I totally do this all the time…I’m secretly paranoid that one of my friends will just pop up out of nowhere and catch me doing something stupid.
since i saw the truman show when i was a little kid i have always thought everyone is watching me and knows everything i do and that they are just pretending they dont know anything about me when really they know everything i do and makes me very paranoid and suspicious of everyone around me.
I DO THIS ALL THE TIME!
I thought I’m the only one lol
This is insane.Other people do this? It’s normal? because it’s really starting to bug the hell out of me. I feel so stupid but it’s becaame the most natual way for me to behave. There’s different levls – like when I’m alone it’s to the max but when I’m with friends or whatever then its still there niggling in the background.
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I am an only child but it went away for a while when I was happy, but recently this behaviour has returned. I was just googling it because I thought I was going to have to accept that I was nuts. Man how do you go about explaining it to somebody?
I totally relate to most of these stories. I would like to stop though.
Not only am I the star of a show, with an audience watching my every move, I have a soundtrack: ‘Soma’ by Smashing Pumpkins, ‘Enjoy the Silence’ by Depeche Mode, ‘So Cruel’ by U2, ‘Razorblades and Bandaides’ by Econoline Crush… yeah, I’m stuck in the 90s.
cece – are you really a university student? if so, i am assuming english is not your major. your posts are almost impossible to read.
whenever Im home alone and Im cooking or baking, I talk outloud as if Im on a cooking show. It makes me feel like Rachel Ray :]
i totally do that…but more often when im not sober.
Oh man, so many people started with the Truman show, I started little with the beauty and the beast. You know the magic mirror? When I am bored or alone I imagine some one is watching me through a … something like the mirror. Its been fading over time but I had to have been like 6 when I saw the movie and I am 23 now … so thats a long time.
I do the same thing! I act obnoxious and sometimes very much like Ignatius from A Confederacy of Dunces, intentionally. We probably do it in different ways, though.
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