moral hangover
Whenever I drink I get the worst moral hangover. I start over analyzing every single thing I said or did throughout the night and end up believing I did the most awful, mortifying things. I feel like the guiltiest person on earth, even though my friends say there’s no reason to. They even think I get more outgoing and fun when under the influence. Since the hangover is inevitable, from now on I’ll stay uptight and unembarrassed (well, I’ll sure try).
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Alco much? If you werent one you wouldnt have feelings of remorse the next day
@ Ivanna, I think it’s more like a remorse for the little things,like smiling too much or dancing like no one’s there.
I don’t know,but when I feel like this it doesn’t matter if i had one drink or four.
i think your conscience is telling you that you should continue this behaviour. you should listen. if you can’t remeber what you did and your so-called friends are encouraging you to be their entertainment, time to stop drinking and get some new friends. better to be shy and safe than wild and unaware of your actions. truly.
sorry, 530am when i typed this: i meant to say you should NOT continue this behaviour! i probably shouldn’t try typing at this hour of the morning, either, so there you go. this is not me being judgmental — i’ve seen people in my family do this and they ended up with huge regrets once they quit binge drinking.
Geez people. I’m the one who entered this neurosis,and I’m no alcoholic o.O
I drink like once every two months at the most…. And I remember everything I did.
It’s just that I’m very self-conscious normally ,to the point where I seem to never be having fun,and dislike everyone. And when I drink a little, I loosen up. About a week after the moral hangover I see that I did nothing out of the ordinary, but the day after I feel like I shouldn’t have gone out,like everything I said was dumb and stuff. And my so-called friends have been my friends ever since middle school and I know them very very well.They are just encouraging me feel free to be myself, instead of worrying about what people will think. Which seems to be an easy thing to do, but is actually really hard.
TMI.
You guys are very judgemental….
Hey Lisa! I have something else to add. I read your entry and just ended up thinking: “Is this a neurosis? I thought everybody experienced that all the time?” I think what you describe is fairly normal, at least where I come from. Apparantly we’re all neurotics
i think hanne has a good take on it. my point was why continue to do something that clearly makes you feel bad and guilty? maybe you just need a little ego-boost and feel good about yourself sans the alcohol. note that i did say i was not judging — just suggesting and alternative to something that inevitably isn’t good for you.
I didn’t know it was normal…Never met someone who did the same thing,so…
It’s good to know that (:
I do this a little bit with alcohol. It’s an instantaneous thing if I ever smoke weed though. I’ll sit in the corner and not talk or do anything because I think anything that I would think to do is stupid. I also start thinking everyone’s hinting to me about something I screwed up.
I’m so like Lisa very self consious at the best of times. I hate not remembering what I’ve said I know I swear far more after a drink or two and spend the next day running around appologizing in case I upset anyone the night before. Not that they’d remember either as they are usually far more drunk than me but I still do it all the same!
I have to chime in – I feel like this EVERY time after a get-together with friends. I go over the previous evening in my mind, wondering if I laughed too much, or if I was annoying in any way. Of course, it’s just being way too self-conscious and probably having low self-esteem that’s to blame. I think the only way to stop that feeling would be to get together with friends and sit in the corner and not say anything at all. But who the heck is going to do that??! I guess I can’t win…
chimimg in as an observer again: i know there is a lot of peer pressure to over-indulge, especially in college. the fact that you feel so unhappy afterward is because deep down you know you shouldn’t be using alcohol in this manner. we’ve probably all done it a few times but it doesn’t really accomplish anything. if you think your friends are talking about your behavior, they probably are! shy people can learn a few ways to become more social without putting yourself at risk. i worry about you guys.
I do this as well, but only when I smoke weed. I can’t handle the stuff and, as a result, do not smoke it anymore. It makes me think about every little detail of the conversation and what it’s ACTUAL meaning is. Every gesture, self-adjustment, and word is broken down into the most basic (and gruesome) meaning. The worst part of it is that I’m not wrong. All of my analysis is true and genuine which is frightening. So I stick to drinking. It works better for me because I loosen up and get a lot funnier without having to worry about whether scratching my eyebrow was a power play or if laughing at that joke means that I’m somehow lower in the pecking-order. Do what works.
I drink like once every two months at the most…. And I remember everything I did.