i am neurotic.

you know that stuff that gets under your PC mouse out of nowhere? i have no idea what it is but i just always HAVE to clean it for no reason at all, just NEEEED to do it.

I always make sure the keyboard letters to my name are clean. Since I fear people might figure out my name, because they’re the dirtiest letters, and steal my identity.

When I type anything that is to be submitted like a comment, update or note on my Facebook, Twitter, forum or a post on any one of my blogs I have to submit it first to make sure it looks alright. If it has a misspelling, small punctuation mistake or left something out I delete it, rewrite it and submit it again. This has to be annoying to anyone who is “following” or is a “friend” of me. No one has said anything about it yet. I feel like I am leaving something out. I am probably going to delete this then submit again.

I get a little too attached to my Microsoft Office assistant, the animated paper clip that annoys everyone else. Its eyes look sad, and I always feel a tiny twinge when it offers help I don’t need. Ditto for the little dog who helps you look for files in the C drive. Once I made it do tricks for like 5 minutes straight.

When I copy something on the computer to paste it somewhere else, I always press command C three times, just in case whatever I was trying to copy didn’t process the first time. If I’m especially worried about it, I’ll do it six or nine times.

Every time I send an email that contains an attachment at work, I open the document one more time just to make sure that I didn’t type any curse words by accident. Sometimes I open it more times after that just to make sure!

Every night before I fall asleep, I simply MUST read all the new posts on 5 websites, textsfromlastnight.com, mylifeisaverage.com, fmylife.com, givesmehope.com, and iamneurotic.com. If I don’t read every single one, I cannot fall asleep.

Every day I go on the computer and check the same socializing websites I go on all the time: Facebook, deviantART, or Gmail. I check them every three minutes to see if someone has said anything to or about me. If I don’t see anything there, I usually feel a bit sad and hope someone will say something in a few minutes following.

Whenever I am on the internet, my page has to be scrolled to a certain point so that NO text or pictures are cut off. Everything I am reading and/or looking at has to fit perfectly on the page.

Whenever I’m talking online, I can’t respond to something until the other person has stopped typing, for fear that they will stop writing what they were going to write, and then forget about it, letting it become lost forever.