i am neurotic.

I have to hold my breath when walking up stairs. Not down though. I don’t really know why, but I feel like it’s bad luck if I don’t. I often get really bad head rushes and feel faint if there are too many stairs to go up.

i sometimes have to retype the same sentance over and over again for good luck. I also have to make sure i always put a space after what i have written.

I have to touch red for 10 seconds if i see a royal mail van or else i will get bad luck.

Whenever I’m playing videogames (more back in the day then now) and I come to an important part (such as a boss fight) I feel the need to rearrange everything around me. If my clothes are uncomfortable to me at that moment, I will change them. I have to tidy up the space around me and find the perfect spot to sit. If I don’t do this I feel that my chances of messing up in the game are much greater.

Whenever I send an e-mail I have to wish it godspeed or good luck, aloud, because I fear if I don’t that it will get lost in cyberspace. Bonne chance to this neurosis!

I cannot walk on an uneven number of Manhole covers. I will jump over them, walk in the road or even change the route that I walk in order to avoid it as it is bad luck. Even numbers though bring good luck so it isn’t all bad news.

I cannot watch a digital clock when it starts a new minute. When I happen to glance at the clock and this happens, I have to avert my eyes and squint really hard to avoid the bad luck that it brings.

I always have to be thinking a good thought when starting or finishing doing something. It can be when I do almost anything – for example, when I brush my teeth, I can’t touch the brush to my teeth without making sure a good thought is in my head, and I can’t put the brush back in the holder without a good thought. Ditto for things like turning lights off and on, or opening or closing doors. OCD, I guess.