i am neurotic.

I refuse to eat cooked tomatoes. Like stewed tomatoes in chili. Reminds me of jelly fish. The texture KILLS me. I don’t even have proper table manners when accidentally stumbling across one. I just open my mouth and lean forward until it falls out.

I cannot stand paper towels or napkins on my skin. Its hard for me to dry my hands with paper and just the thought of wiping my face with one makes me feel ill. I have to avert my eyes during paper towel commercials on tv, they’re always wiping a kid’s face and it’s like fingernails on a chalkboard to me!

For some reason, there’s a certain kind of plastic that annoys the hell out of me. It’s the kind that goes on the top of plastic 3D cards, the ones that change images when you tilt them slightly. I always have to reach out and touch it with my skin when I see one, but if my fingernails come in contact with it, it drives me insane. I feel compelled to reach out and lay my finger down on it without rubbing the plastic. If I accidentally scratch the surface, I get a massive headache and scratch the inside of my palm nervously. If someone else scratches the surface and I hear it I get a migraine, in fact I have a migraine right now just thinking about it. I’m also currently rubbing the tips of my fingernails with my thumb anxiously.

I cannot touch corduroy fabric, the touch is like sandpaper with its softness. Thin nor large strand I will not have this touch my being. I will not sit, touch, own, or come into contact with corduroy. My friends tease me about it, threatening to give me corduroy gifts. I will not take them, I say.

I have this thing against touching raisins. I’m not sure why but I’ll go to great lengths to keep my skin from touching the too-sticky-for-my-tastes raisins while I’m eating. I bring a baby snack pack to work and will smack the box forever until the raisins fall from their sticky corners into my mouth. (I refuse to waste even a single raisin soul.) I even unstretched a paperclip (needed a good disposable tool) today to get some out so I didn’t run the risk of touching one and I HATE when one falls out and I’m forced to pick it up. I hate the sticky and I’m not that way with any other sticky foods. Once I wasted a paperclip over this, I realized a posting was in order.

When ever something makes a certain noise, like styrafoam being pulled out of a box or someone scratching their nails on a velvet car top, I have to rub something porous or rubber. I have goose bumps and basically freak out till I can touch one of these kinds of surfaces.

I obsessively apply chapstick. Whenever I feel my lips are losing their lubricated feel and whip out my Burt’s Bees and smear on a big thick coat.

I can only eat sliced bananas.. Biting them always seems too mushy in my mouth. If they are sliced they feel clean.

Carpet is the absolute worst feeling to me. If I drop a bunch of small things on the carpet, like coins, I have to pick up every one of them. I can’t just scoop them together because then my hands would drag across. When I even think about the feeling of carpet I have to touch my skin with both hands. My skin is soft, carpet is not.

i cannot stand my handwriting pressing onto many pieces of paper. i put an extra piece of paper underneath the one i am writing on so the others won’t get harmed.