i am neurotic.

I can’t stand missing or misused apostrophes. I have to inform the author, add it or focus myself physically and mentally on something else until I forget about it.

whenever i start a text message or type a sentence on facebook/twitter/etc, it has to start with a lower case letter. if i forget to start it with one i delete the whole text or message and start over. the only time i use capital letters is in school, and that is only because i have to.

When I type anything that is to be submitted like a comment, update or note on my Facebook, Twitter, forum or a post on any one of my blogs I have to submit it first to make sure it looks alright. If it has a misspelling, small punctuation mistake or left something out I delete it, rewrite it and submit it again. This has to be annoying to anyone who is “following” or is a “friend” of me. No one has said anything about it yet. I feel like I am leaving something out. I am probably going to delete this then submit again.

I’m a screenwriter, and EVERY TIME I reach the middle point of my story, I absolutely convince myself that there’s a loophole so big, it’s impossible to continue.

If I am writing and I dot an i, if it’s not obviously visible, I HAVE to go back and re-dot it. Even if I am in the middle of a class lecture, and the professor talks really fast, I still find the time to go back and re-dot it. And I HATE it when my professors write on the board and either forget to dot the i, or you can barely see the dot, or the dot is too far away. I end up looking at it until it gets erased.

I am a compulsive editor. When I read anything, I can’t help but notice spelling and grammar mistakes, and I often think of how I would rewrite a sentence to make it sound better.

I have a creative journal project thing going on for myself right now. I must, I must, I must update it everyday; no page can be empty. It started out as something fun then eventually became something I can’t not do. I find myself always writing down things to put in it, and it’s way past its real purpose now. I feel guilty when I don’t fix it, so all my Saturdays are marked with ‘journal day’ most of the time.

I rewrite my paragraphs so that the last line fits the full width.

Every once and a while I change my style of handwriting. I try to learn different styles and make them a habit, but I never keep a certain style for too long, for I fear of becoming boring. I recently switched from big, loopy writing to small, neat half-cursive, half-print with big Capital letters.

I have handwriting that I’m proud of but I’m really, really afraid someone I don’t know will say something about it…cause then I’d have to accept a compliment from a total stranger gracefully. Also, it could mean they were reading whatever I was writing. Whenever it happens (several times each semester) I freeze up. Then I spend the rest of the semester feeling like I owe someone I still don’t know a compliment. Life is hard and my karma sucks.